sometime i feel jealous when ii see my friends and their family are showing love to each and other. i know my family loves me but i really cant see it and cant feel it.
in other way i feel that their loves my 4th sister more.
i feel very sad when my mother scold me and i feel sad even more when she laughing with my 4th sister
it show like i only will make her anrgy and 4th sister is the only one can make her happy
but i know god loves me
i dont care how many people hates me
i only care the love that god give to me
he is the only one that understand what i feel
and nobody can replace him